Readymade - Selfdestructive Today lyrics

Well I think it might be time again To see if I can still take the abuse Laziness is what is k**ing me 'Cause now I have the time to fill the holes But I feel no sadness In this grown up world I feel self-destructive today Yes today is the day for something new To see things I never saw before But I feel there's nothing left for me And it's me that will self-destruct again, and again 'Cause I feel no sadness In this grown up world I feel self-destructive today I wasted all this time To find the palace of wisdom on the excess road But I know I can, I know I will get there somehow 'Cause I still feel self-destructive today