Rarity - Exhale lyrics

I open up my eyes I take a look arround I do not recognize any this people arround me What happened to my scars? What happened to her car? And why the f** do I feel so sober? Is anybody listening? Is anybody here with me? Why this is so easy to breath again? To whom it may concern I think I've done it again I push the bounderies Of how far my luck will take me Why I can't just be happy? Happy with thinking clearly For once in my life To whom it may concern I thinl I've done it again Pushing the loved ones Of people I called my family To fade away like me I rot away Searching for signs of a familiar face Or anything at all Just yesterday I was in your arms And we were finally together and happy Now I've gone and thrown it all away To whom it may concern I think I've done it again I push the bounderies Of how far my luck will take me Why I can't be happy? Happy with thinking clearly For once in my life To whom it may concern I thinl I've done it again Pushing the loved ones Of people I called my family To fade away like me It's either hell or obscurity Rotting dignity Rotting away Like the corpse that I'm supposed to be I'm glad you know what it feels like Living every day like me Rotting dignity Rotting away Like the corpse that I'm supposed to be I miss the sound of you voice at night And what we were supposed to be I don't want to be a ghost to you anymore (rotting dignity) I don't want to be the thought in the back of your mind (rotting away) And I really can't take the sight of your face (I'm glad you know what it feels like) As you look at my name in a concrete line (I miss the sound of you voice at night) I don't want to see the pearly gates (And what we were supposed to be) Because my heaven's when you're with me