Q Strange - Awaiting Exeqtion lyrics

Sittin in a cell waitin I'm contimplatin Will I see god in heaven or am I seein satan? I'm debatin was it worth it actin on my urges Like I had the right to take a life on countless murders It ain't my fault I'm wicked I'm just as sick kid I needed help now I'm waitin to die while time is tickin Everytime the sun rise I make a scratch on the wall So as the days go by I can keepin track of em all I know nobodys gonna miss me cus I never had a home You got me locked inside with family but I always was alone Not a clone in the lab raised by mad scientists It's all a delusion I should have told a psychiatrist I try to sit and rationalize close my eyes See the faces of my victims just before they die Why could'ntI stop why was k**in my addiction Why could'ntmy mind see the line of that conviction Cus every bloody body part the FBI discovered Was a piece of someones child someones friend someones mother I guess it's too late to give a f*ck now I gotta pay the consequences some how So I sit in a cell sicker than hell hittin myself If they don't k** me I'll be k**in myself I'm feelin myself fadin away as the days pa** I'm gettin payed back in a chamber full of gas But it's my own fault I should have never got caught Now they lock me inside of this mysterious vault So I gasp and choke on the smoke and I can't see Now I'm dead that makes them no better than me