PSTMN - Absence lyrics

[Verse 1: Silas] I'm just trying to find a way I notice you got by today Problems in your life make you think God don't even watch you pray You sit down and just recollect Some thoughts that make you feel depressed That absence of your son father Just had my heart on decompress I see myself so much in him Probably why your world spin And ima' be right here right now Until this f**ing world end And popo rush me and my cousin This one for my little brothers Absence made me stronger to my own which I [?] Locked up in the [pain?] Same sh** just a different day Hope you know I miss you but right now this what [?] say Everything you love is everything you can succeed in Don't let that absence break you down We changing like the seasons Reminiscing back to park swings every f**ing weekend The only one believe in [?] Wrote this here with initiative For the people that been listening Know all about my life and know that sh** ain't all that we can give cause [Bridge] I don't look too much, I got an absence And I don't care too far, I'm just laughing See I don't love too much, I'm staying pa**ive If you can't live this life, then why you practice [?] [Verse 2: Silas] Ay yo, I'm waking up No money in my pockets Thought about my plans and the sh** that's always stopping Low down, dirty, life was always hurting My family don't no give a f** [?] so close to giving up I know the, know the Said I know that f**ing pain Living in your heart, but you wanna make a change Lead you down to better days We smoke while they meditate I showed them, showed them Uh its weight upon my shoulders Livin' in a city like mine I swear it make you bolder My older homie died, hit and run I'm getting colder Hope you sing about me from the [?] This sh** a curse and a gift I'm bringing hell-fire but I swear it's heaven sent Money money, na uh No murder murder Heard it all the time No my heart can't hold this burden Pills in my pocket, I gotta stop it Selling bars happiness [?] I thought the image got me I move along, I move along So many problems got me terrified at home Wonder what the f** is happening all in this world I need a record deal cause my shorty need a pearl They can't hold my grittiness, fire built that's evident The boys that run the streets, gun blazing kept me relevent I know know, know whats wrong what we doing here[?]