Prurient - Memory Repeating lyrics

I woke up today Not to trains But to the mowing of a lawn I woke up not to you But only me alone Things are different here It's hard to believe Only hours ago I was laughing Reflecting Your smile Searching for Or hiding the words Not to ruin everything I miss you now I taste your memory repeating I knew it would be hard Apart again But is there any way to prepare for longing?