Pinegrove - Portal lyrics

I've got this feelin' a mile wide I look at it a little Each side A portal for to climb inside How's it feel in here? Is the water fine? Fine like cloth or like Turpentine? The pattern where our habits hide Isn't it lovely? I'll never hold you To all you held me to I wanna talk about All the ways Every example of The shapes We use to communicate For example when You're leanin' in To my armageddon And then you stop Do you also feel the weight of loss? Isn't it lonely? I'll never hold ya The way you held me up