Phora - Deeper Than Blood lyrics

Sometimes pain runs deeper than blood Sometimes karma comes back on the people you love Sometimes we gotta let go and turn the other way We just fightin' for another day Cause everything has a cause, you may not like the effect A heart full of pain and a life full of regrets Forced to make certain choices that you might not respect In this world full of hate, just a child of neglect He was breathin' in cigarrette smoke, watching cartoons Loud yells comin' from the other room Landlord bangin' on the door askin' where the f**in' rent at cause it's 30 days overdue Nobody answers it They was smokin' up the house like they ain't know that sh** was cancerous But his mom is still tryna quit She ain't got no one to depend on to provide for her kids She's working 2 jobs Barely makin' enough to fill his stomach It's still filled with nothing Hard times, she can feel 'em coming And it's been that while for a while She raisin' a fatherless child, you can see the pain in her smile She got unpaid bills piling on up the counter No matter how close to the edge she got something about her And never let her lose hope Even when she hit rock bottom, she feels the noose around her neck It's just a loose rope But it's only getting tighter, suffocating her slowly She's a lover and a fighter, but something just keeps her lonely She got a collect call but she already know who it's from She took a deep breath, answered the phone and begun She said I gotta move on with my life, I told you it's done Plus it's been 2 months since you spoke to your son It's not about me and it's not about you anymore It's not about running the streets and acting a fool anymore You've been gone for 7 years, their's nothing you can do anymore Cause I've lost everything and I just can't bear to lose anymore You see, theirs somebody else Not because I'm in love, but cause I needed some help The type of help you can't provide I'm sick of waiting I'm sick of sittin' around knowing you might not make it out alive Sick of not havin' somebody by my side Sick of our kids askin "where's our daddy?" I'm sick of tellin' them these lies I'm just sick of it all And if you ever met parole and have plans for the future, please don't get us involved Don't call Don't Call Don't write And most of all Leave my child alone And before he could say a word All he heard is a dial tone As his mother put down the phone he heard her saying "God, I really need you right now, please just show me a sign, my heart is bleeding right now" But he was only a kid, so he really didn't really know much Still tryna understand why his mother cried so much Father's Day was the worst Plus they ain't had no money in the bank, so it felt like every holiday was a curse And his birthday just pa**ed He's getting ready for a lonely Christmas They say his dad is gone for business But he knows the difference Starting to forget his father's face and what he looked like No bedtime stories, no good mornings, no good night Just a good luck from the judge, his life would change with a sentence Slam the gavel down, he's found guilty of all the offenses On the other side of the fence, left his child defenseless Now he fends for himself, but he feels so relentless His momma's boyfriend drinks until his demons come out The liquor takes control of his soul, he don't speak with his mouth He speaks with his fist, disagree get beat til your pissed The type of pain that'll make you put a knife deep in your wrist Sometimes the choices you make, they don't only effect you But they also effect the people you love and care about You see, I wish I could say that it's never too late But I would only be lying to you Because time and the people we love are the only 2 things we can never get back in this world