Lift me up to drop me down Heavy heart becomes my friend Want to drown in your love not just drown How do I feel whole again Whole again In a hole again Emptiness is my friend I cling on your every word Mixed messages you send Can I believe what I just heard Say it again I'm falling in I'm fine now No damn doubt Don't ask how My heart it dried up and dropped you out Love hate state can't relate Hate stands where love just stood Go back from abuse down to elate Gets where feeling bad feels good And you do it again Shields and pins I only wanted us to stay Perfect in every little way