Phantom Limb - Badge of Descension lyrics

Darkness surrounds me like an old dirty coat I welcome it home 'cause it helps me to float Past the windows of kindness to an old dirty joke That I learned from a long lost friend It holds me in comfort for a while and then It takes me to a place where it hurts me to bend I cry out to god: "Won't you take this away?" Once again I feel like a fool for the things that I've done I blame it on you 'cause I can't be the one Who puts on the badge of descension and tries to pretend That I'm not the one who's taken it all on again It feels so familiar in that old dirty coat With badness around me tied tight round my throat Keeps me close to the devil and the things that he wrote Keep your enemies closer than kin I feel like a fool for the things that I've done I blame it on you 'cause I can't be the one Who puts on the badge of descension and tries to pretend That I'm not the one who's taken it all on again