Peter Anthony Red - Spiral lyrics

Yes, I sense the numbing, best intentions crumbling Tension in my blood is begging me to punish Anything I love and every dream you covet Ends up being cut and empathy is summoned Steadily corruption enters me and s**s the Energy to thrust my tendencies out of my body And out of my soul, sending me deeper Weakened, I'm spiraling out of control, and the higher I go And it's everything or nothing, lest I'm feeling something Penalties will come and hell will be the summit Just forget the suffocating nature of it Eventually you'll crush the threats that seem redundant Let it be just what it intends to be And drug myself in attempts to flush it chemically out of my body And out of my soul, sending me deeper - weakened I'm spiraling out of control, and the higher I go On the precipice, next to the end of my senses Possessed when I'm tempted, obsessed with the ending I delve in to pen a duet with dissension Attempting to lessens this sense of descending Below…and I'm falling down further it seems And I'm close the bottom, the curvature swings And the slope is impossible, swerving and steep As I roll on, I'm hollow and slurring my speech I begin to unravel, the inner me is battling for the saddle And willingly - I'm traveling on a path with a cliff that's deep And accidents – when they happen – will sympathy exist for me As if innocence, it existed? Will they weep If my sins where this cataclysmic, indiscreet And these incidents add up - witnessed in the streets Will they wince or just laugh in relief I need to feel something at some point from someone Or some kind of substance, for some type of sustenance Sometimes I suffer in silence But as soon as swells, then I set off the sounds of my sirens On the precipice, next to the end of my senses Possessed when I'm tempted, Obsessed with the ending I delve in to pen a duet with dissension Attempting to lessen this sense of descending On the precipice, next to the end of my senses Possessed when I'm tempted, Obsessed with the ending I delve in to pen a duet with dissension Attempting to lessen this sense of depression On the precipice, next to the end of my senses Possessed when I'm tempted, Obsessed with the ending I delve in to pen a duet with dissension Attempting to lessen this sense of descending Both hands open, I tumble Coldly embracing the fall Here you are again, good to see you Don't think I've missed you at all Hold tight Here it goes Oh right There is nothing For you To hold on It's your turn now, so Round and round I go Spinning downward on the spiral ledge Moving faster today Than I did yesterday When I thought I was closer to the end Round and round I go Spinning downward on the spiral ledge Looping in circles, No proof of this vertigo Truth is – it's all in my head Truth is – it's all in my head Truth is – it's all in my head Truth is – it's all in my head Truth is – it's all in my head Don't pick me up Just let me drown Don't pick me up Just let me drown Just close your eyes And turn around Pull back your hand Don't pull me up Just close your eyes If you could feel the things I feel Then you would know Just what it is To fall down So far below The darkest smoke A blackened view Where there's no wrong And there's no right And there's no rules And there's no start And there's no you And there's no me No recollection Who I used to be One day I'll know Just how it feels To wear those clothes To be myself One day I'll know To forge the steel To be the one To save myself From myself This shining knight A pale white horse And off he rides Till I feel something I haven't felt Since I was born Since I was born Since I was born The spiral works both ways The lines will curve and tighten You'll find you'll know the way You won't be hurt or frightened A life that learns no pain Will never yearn to heighten So fight the cold and strain Rewind to where the light is