Pete Philly & Perquisite - Mindstate lyrics

[Verse 1] I fall into the darkness and I can't get out Once again depressed, stressed and filled with doubt Ain't no solid evidence Justificating the aggravating decision to choose a musicians existence sh** is intense, losing confidence Really wanna break through but I feel the fence Defensive way of acting The way I react when I feel this way Man I'ma k** today Hey, listen up normally I'm up But when the down comes around y'all better shut up I'm in-caged by my own rage My own resentment This state of mind normally stays for a day But hey, I really try to be the nicest guy But sometimes my insecurities slice me right? Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Phil I'm either an a**hole or truly real This remains for anyone if I ever offended you I'm torn between ups and downs and the ups is losing duke I'm choosing to be this way Cause it's a part of me and the lyricist that I stay I pray to stay righteous and fight just not to give up And show these fools that I do give a f** but I guess it's just my mindstate [Chorus] I guess it's just my mindstate [Verse 2] I wake up and shut the curtains to hide from the sunlight Drink a cup of coffee and I hide Cause the sun might change my perspective on things And force me to act and react, throw my a** in the ring and fight tonight I stay up late, anxious as f** Scared that my fate is to be broke and stuck in an illusion of grandeur Or get suicidal like my late grandfather I purr like a kitten, yet often feel smitten By the terrible disease of never feeling at ease I'm displeased by everything an anything at all times Even though I'm pleasantly positive in all rhymes sh**, just a facade Feel pleasant every time I hear them applaud Yet regret sinks in whenever I'm not singing Thinking I should've finished my school instead of just bringing the Rhyme Yet I'm just manic like that, trading education for inspiration is just Phat f** them suicidal tendencies, I need to stop thinking like that I guess it's just my mindstate I guess it's just my mindstate....