[Verse 1: SirGenti] I still don't know where I'm heading, don't know where I'm getting Spent so much time searching a garden named "Eden" Hell on earth as long as my beloved ones are present Life's already over cause it flies by like seconds Mother had two roles in life, mommy and daddy Cause daddy was to busy banging b**hes as a habit I remember how sick I was scared under the blanket Everytime you came home drunk with your mad sh** I guess you'll never understand how much I needed you How much I hated you, how much I... Whatever Let's change [Verse 2: SirGenti] Negative attitude sipping on my desperados What the f** was I supposed to do when that b**h left me adios I'm incarcerated in my own mind I try to make it happen cause I wanna be on time 9 to 5 ain't not for me but writing doesn't pay me f**ing bills keep on coming by the dozen lately It got me thinking bout my mother, she keeps on getting stressed So scared to see her son with some never ending mess Don't wanna give up on my dreams, not left with many choices I'm being woken up by all these scary voices Not that I never had a chance I just mess it up Like it's a purpose in life I must get things f**ed I write some chapters in my life but can't a**emble the book Over and over again like I'm a sample in loop Like I'm a sample in loop