Parcels - Outside lyrics

I've been outside Hoping for something better Holding my eyes Holding myself together And even on that island Heard my mother's wedding bells I've been so tired I've been so tired I've been alone Walking those streets forever Holding my phone Wait to receive a letter And I'm gonna see my father Gonna ask him something else Where did you go? But everything's cool here I don't want to ruin this party Everybody's cool here I don't want to ruin your party Isn't that nice What an old man can tell ya Ain't it just cruel What your old ma remembers I don't want to be my father But I don't want to be alone How can I hide? How can I know? So I've been alone Writing you songs and letters I've been alone Feels like I might forever I've been living on that island But it's time to let it go I've been so scared I feel so alone But everything's cool here I don't want to ruin this party Everybody's cool here I don't want to ruin your party Everything's cool here I don't want to ruin this party Everybody's cool here I don't want to ruin your party