P. Soul - I Guess lyrics

[Verse 1] 1998 see the year was only starting I had too many friends and maybe they were all for parting Cause all my life was living was ridden in by her pardon That's where it all began and I swear I must be retarded Tuesday b**h Thats March 31st Knock knock, the door goes my hip drops I'm cursed Lift up the latch, she enters incomes the doom Didn't see the darkness and now she got me hurt She smiles at me, asks me gently how I've been I'm okay baby how about you and all of your sins? I'm on top of the world and you my king Bites her lower lip, it thins, I'm tangled like string Grabs me the shoulders and gives me a little kiss Tells me all the memories we lived and now we miss Playing with my mind, nah this b**h has got me pissed But she gets to me, nervously I speak in lisp [Hook] How could you do this, baby I've been up all night on my own? I knew you missed me but you don't have to k** me you know How could you do this, baby I've been so depressed and alone You shot me down, I get back up and now I'm holding my phone [Verse 2] You say that maybe we should take a trip up stairs Take a little walk, I let the words fill my prayers She takes her top off, boiling up she gets undressed I don't get it baby, what's the occasion and what's the test? She tells me shut up baby you're louder than sirens But never did I know that she was thinking violence She told me what I know and then baby just close your mouth Unless the words that you speak are more beautiful than silence I get the message and I lay there in the darkness Hear a little noise and it's something I couldn't harness She says you know what you did you you f**ing idiot I tell her slow baby, talk and we can calm this She says no and then I feel her fall apart She says f** you, you've used me from the start She reaches to her pocket and cries out loud hard Grips the knife she's holding and sinks it into my heart [Hook] How could you do this, baby I've been up all night on my own? I knew you missed me but you don't have to k** me you know How could you do this, baby I've been so depressed and alone You shot me down, I get back up and now I'm holding my phone [Verse 3] One month we go back before Christmas I used to have a family, friends various listeners I know a lot of people won't understand But just listen to my voice and don't even contemplate dissing this She sent me nudes, they're little pictures of her naked f** it in the end I had to go and break it I guess she found out and little heart couldn't take it I sent them to my friends and they told me they all rate it Two days it took to get around the school And then f**ing college and then to her work too 7 days later they got uploaded on google and travelled round the world and they ended in guys rooms I didn't f**ing realise what I'd done until I did it I wish there was a way that I could go back now and rid it Now she's lost her life and locked alway in an asylum She took her freedom, liberty, work and pride with it [Hook] How could you do this, baby I've been up all night on my own? I knew you missed me but you don't have to k** me you know How could you do this, baby I've been so depressed and alone You shot me down, I get back up and now I'm holding my phone