P.MO - How I Feel lyrics

[Intro: Marina and the Diamonds] You're hard to hug, tough to talk to And I never fall asleep, when you're in my bed All you give me is a heartbeat I've turned into a statue And it makes me feel depressed Cause the only time you open up is when we get undressed You don't love me, big f**ing deal I'll never tell you how I feel You don't love me, not a big deal I'll never tell you how I feel It almost feels like a joke to play out a part When you are not the starring role in someone else's heart You know I'd rather walk alone, than play a supporting role If I can't get the starring role [Verse 1: P.MO] Fell in love in highschool, now you can't stand the thought of me Got to get you out my brain, doc give me a lobotomy Straight up run the board, boy call this sh** Monopoly Find me chilling probably with a couple of thotties, I'm an oddity So hard to find loveing honestly And when I make it to my dreams, please save your appology No time to facetime, too busy being a prodogy Loved you with all I had but all you did was f** around on me Freshman year in college you ain't sh** All you care about is all the likes about on your pic And now your heart is so cold tryna fix it with some dick But baby I can guarantee that all those guys don't give a sh** about you About your dreams and aspirations All they want is one night, a warm body, and sensations Depressed and violated, popping medication Cover up with make-up to hide your foundation [Hook: Marina and the Diamonds] You don't love me, big f**ing deal I'll never tell you how I feel You don't love me, not a big deal I'll never tell you how I feel It almost feels like a joke to play out a part When you are not the starring role in someone else's heart You know I'd rather walk alone, than play a supporting role If I can't get the starring role [Verse 2: P.MO] What do you want from me? I just want the truth Cause if you love me you ain't got nothing to prove And if you love me you then you wouldn't make me choose You know and I know that this is what I do So hard to tell you how I feel now I got a heart to steal Been broken so many times picking up the pieces still I don't know how real feel, you always been fake as f** You were my princess, behind my back you were a s*ut Corrupt, I miss judged, I should've listened to my gut I was in the lab working, you were at it f**ed up How am I supposed to trust and feel comfortable again Tryna spend time with you but you're running around with your friends It never ends, it goes round like the merry goes Writing all these songs for you, but you'll never hear 'em no Tell me how [?] that you're the reason for my pain Hope you know you messed up every time you see my name [Hook: Marina and the Diamonds] You don't love me, big f**ing deal I'll never tell you how I feel You don't love me, not a big deal I'll never tell you how I feel It almost feels like a joke to play out a part When you are not the starring role in someone else's heart You know I'd rather walk alone, than play a supporting role If I can't get the starring role