P. Diddy - Is This the End, Pt2 lyrics

Momma told me one day it was gonna happen But she never told me when She told me it would happen when I was much older Wish it would've happened then (Is this the end?) Momma told me one day it was gonna happen But she never told me when She told me it would happen when I was much older Wish it would've happened then (Is this the end?) Sometimes I be wakin' up at high noon Sayin, "Why me, Lord?", folks thinkin' I'ma die soon I just tell 'em keep seekin' but when they sleepin' I be concealed up in my room, knowin' that it could happen I'm just tryin' to maintain because the future is untold Till the static unfolds that the good die young Please, God, let a bad boy die old Do you think I wanna lie cold Or better yet have many shots come close to the head? Shirt soaked till it's red The most that was said was that my homies had a toast to the dead Do I need a pack a vest for stress so I can rest 'Cause even though I'm blessed in my flesh It all came down to a test A motherf**er wanna go and put a tattoo on my chest Now I'm caught up in the mix and I can't do sh** But still I can't ride with program, fearing no man Hit the car door, let the door slam It's a blessing that he had slow hands But he's still right behind me All these heartless fools is steady comin' after my P So many phony n***az lovin' to hate Sean So many cheddar n***az comin' after my cheese Is it my car that they're losin', are we all for the choosin'? Or is it all in confusion? Better yet all an illusion Shots rang through the hall bullets cruisin' for bruisin' Don't let this heartless ba*tard take my life away I don't wanna conceive takin' his either Dipped into the back and took a breather Heard steps steady in closin' with the bullet skeezer Gotta do somethin', I ain't scared to go But yet my heart is steady pumpin' for somethin' I refuse to be the one that they be dumpin' Gotta get away before the techs start gunnin' Bodies start jumpin' Wreckin' my brain not to try and understand But withstand, is it 'cause I'm a rich man Or just to try to put a brother down in the dirt like quicksand But no matter what the reason, I don't wanna stop breathin' There's dreams to fulfill still Can't complete em with a still k** Face to face with enemies still grill Forgive me for the pain I've caused and the sins I've committed Even though I'm not hopin' to go, I wish someone would open the do' This man's holding the trigger and his finger's steady choking it slow Is this the end? Momma told me one day it was gonna happen But she never told me when She told me it would happen when I was much older Wish it would've happened then (Is this the end?) Just can't let go (Is this the end?) I, just, don't, know Wish it would've happened then Did I just hear a tight jam How it's on let make my maneuver Hit the alley saw a man in a Land Cruiser In his hand was a Ruger, dipped in a Lex like Luger Heard shots from a steel bruiser Teflon in the seat took a pale stress Felt the hate on my chest as I placed on my vest What's wrong with the brakes in the LX? Ran straight into a lightpole, just before I got my life stole A car came to the rescue, I bailed in and said, "Bless you But what made me the man you would wanna show help to?" I proceeded to ask him and he said with a pa**ion I could never watch a soul die, plus you the man lookin' too fly (But who are you?) The pimp n***a named Twista from the cold Chi When the sun's, shy gotta keep one eye, n***a I been shot at and stole on No protection from one time, only caught for my prime So I asked the Father what I did so wrong? 'Cause sh**, it's been hard for me besides chief And the smell of sweet news when the beef brew Motherf**ers steady ballin' but steady fallin' Right in detours, 'bout to hit my feet soon So I just presume Deep into the rhymes of a rapper Prepare my mind for the capture, thinkin' Ginuwine like the bachelor But why these n***az wanna make us into crime with the rapture? Ego for dispersin' us, don't even hurt the clutch 'Cause he's coldblooded and merciless Steady bustin' shots at both of us, was the strap close to us Then for survival we both to bust But Renaults get to roast to crush, 'cause he steady gettin' closer Paranoid like a crackfiend when the gat seen Scream when the bullet hit me in the shoulder Don't wanna die till I get older Try to visualize the beholder, he's inconceivable So now my sight is gettin' dark a lot Best to step off in this parking lot where them dogs bark a lot And try to wait until his ma get hot I can make a person fight to survive whether good or connivin' You never know when it's your time to leave Smokin' weed to keep my mind at ease Let's go back to the car but wait, I can't find the keys Plus we didn't chill long enough The footsteps are comin' close Is it one of them unholy men? With a strap ready to boldly sin Mama told me it was comin' but I wish she woulda told me when Is this the end? Momma told me one day it was gonna happen But she never told me when She told me it would happen when I was much older Wish it would've happened then (Is this the end?) Momma told me one day it was gonna happen But she never told me when She told me it would happen when I was much older Wish it would've happened then (Is this the end?) Just can't let go