Outline In Color - I Will Struggle lyrics

I'm wide awake, I know the truth Some people are poison and I'm the proof I hear the voice inside that says "Everyone is beautiful but you!" One mind, any weapon I'm in heaven My nerves start to deaden Everything is the same to me When I let go I become who I might be Why do I hate what they love? My insecurities and everything I'm made of? I'm okay with being something I'm not We live We die We rot [Chorus] Every single day I will struggle To just be happy again To feel normal I know I'm in trouble Is this the way that it feels to be no one? I will struggle Every day that I survive feels like a miracle I'm in trouble This is the way that it feels to be no one I hate myself I want to die I can't find meaning in this life I never asked to be alive And I don't think I was born to survive The needle breaks the skin I feel it sinking in My god, what have I done? My mother's only son I'm far from invincible And some days I feel invisible [Chorus] Every single day I will struggle To just be happy again To feel normal I know I'm in trouble Is this the way that it feels to be no one I will struggle Every day that I survive feels like a miracle I'm in trouble This is the way that it feels to be no one Life is so hard But we share the same struggle They say "better a live coward Than a dead hero" I thought I was chosen But really I am broken I'm fragile I could break at any moment Don't be like me Don't be like me If you know there is hope Set yourself free If the good die young Then I'll be around for a lifetime If the good die young Then I'll be around for a lifetime Don't be like me Don't find comfort in the places I go I'm too scared to look in a mirror Too afraid to live But too cowardly to die I'm selfish I'm a liar I'm flawed I can't control my anger I can't face my appearance I can't love the right way But it's time to face the truth I will struggle every day For the rest of my life... And I'll always, in every way, and every day I will struggle (x4)