Outis - Longing lyrics

(Verse One) What if you were still here? You deserve to be, curses, I'm nervous, fear to persevere Hurt & tears, I've yearned for years for you, a dirge with words that work me weary Still see you near me but you appear so blear til you're unclear, makes me want to just disappear & I say that sincerely, you're whom I revere so dearly I'm still adhered, you're inhered within me As the pen bleeds, so does my hearts' in need of mending, maybe that's what I'll get from always showing my soul in art ascends me I'll never let her go & you're not her mother so stop pretending to be her blessing You'll never be Her grandmas' the closest thing to her mother, accept that you don't care about her cause y'alls marriage the only thing you're protecting & that's never ending Who you used to be, what's left is a memory (Hook) I'm longing for you, can't live without I do all this for you are happy now I don't know if I'll ever see you again But I know the memories, I still keep hold of them (Verse Two) Listen Cielo Ever since I left, I look up at the sky, without you, I am blue I'll show you my true colors but don't you ever look up to me, you'll see I'm just yellow I'd send a memo to you but they won't even let me tell you hello I don't even have a memento of you, just some memories I'm not supposed to remember because to them, I guess I'm just supposed to forget you I resettled cause I was unsettled now tell me how pathetic it is for me to try to rekindle with you when I never spent as much time with you as I should've but if I could've I would've but she wouldn't let me next to you Then I'd get accused of incest, this stress is too much, you know we'd never do that to you, only protect cause that's what brethren do I admit I was a mess so if you ever felt threatened by me, it was unintentional Now there's nothing left to do (Hook) (Verse Three) I wish I could erase the image of you or burn you in effigy & if that means I'm burning a bridge too far, I'll let it be Let go of the remnants of us, they go with the tempest is how it should never be But people come & go & that fact is affecting me Whether it be family members or friends, it seems at one point, you'll be an enemy to them for whatever reason I've went over the hills & far away only for you to pull me right back down this declivity Either cause of dependency or maybe just destiny Togetherness is serenity & that is the verity but where is your empathy & why can't you tell me why you're resenting me? I hope it's all temporary, remember you said that we we're The Three Musketeers? Well that's nary more cause we're secondary to whom you married, that's carelessness If that ain't apparent to you, I guess I'm just parentless (Hook)