Otep - Numb and Dumb lyrics

i'm tired of being tired sick of being sick erase & escape the meathooks of reality lock the door load your guns & pray for nothing (i don't care, i don't care i don't care, i don't care) and daddy's shooting smack and mama's smoking crack and teacher is a s** addict and preacher has a p**n habit and sister's such a who*e and my life is a bore take your vitamins whiten your teeth comb your hair know when to speak they say jesus was a masochist but maybe they said, pacifist oh sweet goddess or narcotics on my knees I pray just give me one more dose & make it all go away make me completely numb & dumb (watch your tone, obey the law know when to bend, believe in god) i took his wife into my mouth like a slice of wedding cake i went back for extra helpings & then i cleaned my plate still covered in her yolk the wet drug of my addiction i'm nature's little criminal a selfish crucifixion oh sweet scarecrow in the sky you have all the answers but we will never die oh sweet goddess or narcotics on my knees I pray just give me one more dose & make it all go away make me completely numb & dumb i ran out the front door the devil's at the back door whispering to the sea & above a black feathered sun drunk on teenage meat i don't care, i don't care i don't care, i don't care make me completely numb & dumb medicate & sedate pa** the punishment I need another fix