Orion Prophet - The Flood of Tears, Pt. 3 lyrics

[Verse 1] Oh sh**, the antidepressant is wearing off And now I'm paranoid, I feel the people staring off Into the distance, the future I seem to always fear If I can't face it tell me why the f** I'm even here Dissertations on how I'm seeking emancipation Cause I'll discover inner peace through the isolation My purpose may be clear, possibly I was mistaken I need the peace, somebody say as-salāmu alaykum I doubt the people in my life really want me around I'm so supportive, and I always seem to turn a frown But when I'm feeling down they think I'm looking for attention I say the same when I am speaking to my own reflection On top of that I'm young so I can't be opinionated I put in thought but they just say I'm undereducated But really I'm just over-medicated It's no surprise, everything has been premeditated [Bridge] Drowning in the floods of tears I'm a dark boy, I only got a few good years The universe has my fate set up so linear So I should do what I want to do while I'm still here Like find a pretty b**h and grab her my both of her ears Tell her that she really have nothing left to fear And we can blow up like that motherf**ing blimp Goodyear Pour out buckets overhead from all the floods of tears [Verse 2] But truthfully I really just need something to do Cause I just think about the worst when I be up in my room I hate to socialize but I can pull it off so it's cool Maybe I'll join a gang and then I pull it off and it's bool I hate to say that every night I think of taking my life I wanna die, doesn't even have to be suicide I then I'll quiet down, both my opticals will be dry I couldn't make another motherf**ing flood if I tried I remember the moment I figured out I was crazy Has some murderous intents like I could shoot up a baby Has some murderous intents like I could pull up to my exes house Take her pets out and snap the necks until there's no sound Hate everyone at school it's just fake hoes and snake n***as Not a pacifist, I'm a masochist, beat me till my bones break n***a Guess I only get with crazy girls but I think crazy girls are great n***a I can stomach it because my stomach been filled to the brim with liquor Oh sh**, f** n***a You can see I'm not playing with you Fed up with feeling sad all the time Dealing with all this anger too Got schizophrenic tendencies But I really don't mean to danger you Blow my head off like Kurt did in the year 1996 minus 2 I can fake it pretty damn well Illustrate a genuine smile too Tell this girl to get me coffee like the big n***a from the Green Mile too People think I'm just a clown Because I wear 13 inch size shoes They never notice that I got the motherf**ing blues [Interlude: Caleb Carnell] Hey bro, we're starting to get worried We haven't seen you in like two weeks bro Where have you been? What are you doing? Just call us when you get this I guess [Verse 3] It's kind of crazy when you think about it Cause every n***a boast around, but I f**ing doubt it Built a natural sense of danger for all my surroundings But when I pick up the pen and pad I'm f**ing astounding We all real, Jesse Williams is talking truthful They love to judge and hate because a n***a living youthful But I put my thought in lyrics and I made them useful And I learned I shouldn't care about f**ing approval I want to change the world and watch my money quadruple My music so abrasive, abusive, so exclusive If you in my lane expect a quick, painless removal I'll never sell out, big checks will get a refusal This is my revival I'm destined to be the best and all the signs are vital I'm 'bout to light me up a blue like I'm launching Tidal And figure out why my ex feel so f**ing entitled Hold up, because I realize I'm k**ing it I'm rocking back and forth like I'm in a ba**inet n***as checking for the flows but I'm cashing in n***as checking for the hoes, I'm a rapping plant I'd really love to see a f** n***a sample that Cause that's deada** the bottom line, it's f**ing flat A n***a feeling unstoppable like I'm Rascal Flatts It's like I'm f**ing a pistol when I'm co*king the strap Shoutout to my girlfriend Know that I'ma love you till the motherf**ing world ends Telling me to chill when I'm 'bout to go off the deep end And you a motherf**ing dime girl, perfect ten Every flood of tears evaporates eventually But I get a rain of hate every time they mention me I don't need negativity all in my sight The dark thoughts only happen at midnight