Original God - My Heart Died The Night She k**ed Herself lyrics

[Verse] Why am I so scared to die If I'm already too scared to live Why am I so scared that one day I will see myself inside my future kids Why am I not scared of pain But too scared to cut open my veins Why am I scared that you always remember the worst when you look at my face Why is my heart [?] But my family will always see love Why am I scared that my uncle and my best friend [?] Why am I scared to believe And [?] Cause if there was a God then he wouldn't let all these children be k**ed in the streets