Onelinedrawing - The Big Parade lyrics

I've just come back from the war I'm angry and tired and bored Scarred by the things that I saw Still don't feel like I'm home Don't wanna go back But I don't wanna stay I'm still waiting for the big parade Just before dawn Doesn't feel like last fall Feels like a friend I've lost touch with Who I hoped wouldn't call Blankets and clothes Pictures of wives The glow in the burning We saw from the sky When I woke up All swaddled in white I wanted my mother Wanted her to tell me why I was alive I'd write every night Just before bed For a while there I stopped Did you think I was dead? The truth of it is I was just scared Scared to come back I wanted to stay I'm still still waiting For the big parade don't wanna go back don't wanna stay I'm still waiting Still waiting for... The big parade