On My Honor - I Never Deserve The Things I Need lyrics

I want to live by the ocean At least near water of some kind To keep me cool in the warmer months When winter hits, providing something solid in my life I'm not breaking any ice Thin limbs are reaching out too far They won't be getting any better A bitter man's mind Equipped with Childlike arms These branches are retracting Curling in on me Holding on as long as possible to every leaf Pleading with the earth and sun Until I fall, they'll all stay safe sponsored links In my shade's reach But they're blowing away The colorful parts of me The purpose I serve Piece by piece Falling off of me A cleansing, by fire Burnt down in private No one can ever see I never, I never deserve the things I need I sought the role of an open book Lent too many times Thrown in bags, floorboards of cars Critiqued by too many minds Highlighted and dog-eared To no convenience of mine A cleansing, by fire Burnt down in private No one can ever see I never, I never deserve the things I need As much as it pains me I need you to know You're what I carry with me Every time I go Despite every nightmare Clawing at my soul I count it a privilege Just to watch you grow No rest for the strong If that's how you're perceived Too close, too close You're too close to me It's what I craved and cried for I never deserve the things I need I want to live by the ocean At least near water of some kind