Okkervil River - Call Yourself Renee lyrics

Don't look back until you realise you're pointedly not trying to look back Then reconsider trying for a clearer mind, try for a grace of some kind Leave your house and walk in the autumn light Imagine a river, ma**ive and galloping beneath your feet Or you can call yourself Renee again and you can move back to Rapid City You live in a hotel, you wait for a phone call, you wait for an email You look out the window at a tree, weighted down with snow You worry about your mother, you watch a couple movies, you take an Ativan You walk down a Rapid City street alone And at night there's a pink cast underneath the blank grey cloud head Well it's something pretty to look at in the sky And I don't know why so-and-so's taking much time to breathe something new into my life And there's a tip-tap on the window that could be Fate's pale face looking in Energy could be in the trembling hands of a tree, or it could be lighter Could be nothing at all Out in the night The world was right against our skin And it was right again Out in the night The world was right against our skin And it was right, baby Mysteriously absent for the afternoon and suddenly missing for a full month His mother called up, called around the corner, called out shivering from a dream Called his father five states to the south, said he was gone When he could have easily been seen in a Vero Beach Dillard's Weaving in and out of the racks of beautiful blue men's shirts Or in South Florida, breezing through the drive-through, easy like a song on the stereo Letting it all slide like an easy-going god Or he could have not existed, just a vision of his mother When she wished it so hard into something she could almost see Or he could have been a feeling in the air, or the guy who cuts your hair He could have been anyone, he could even have been me And me, I don't care if I come back as a single wave Or an oriole on a spell branch on a tree Cause I'm not scared to die as long as I know that the universe has something really to do with me Out in the night The air was right against our skin And it was right Out in the night The air was right against our skin And it was right, baby I wanna make it nice again I wanna make it alright I wanna make it nice again I wanna make it alright Out in the night The world was right against our skin And it was alright, child Out in the night The world was right against our skin And it was alright, baby I wanna make it nice again I wanna make it alright