In a field Forever In the sun You're heavy Chewing gum Forever In a field Chewing on a bubblegum Living Chewing on a bubblegum Living in a field Nowhere to run, nowhere to go, nowhere to hide for cover I try so hard to be like them, but I'm not like the others Concerned with different things, they often wonder why I bother I've never settled down and kept friends, all I've done was suffer Born in the USSR, then moved around, seen different faces Sometimes I didn't hate it, but never was I complacent Everybody knows it all but me, they always have opinions On how I should lead my life "Just be happy" That is brilliant I love to look, but hate to find, in fear of losing sh** I've turned to d** when I was scared, I'm but a useless kid Having panic attacks, I'm manic, I act Frantic in fact, a baffling brat They say "keep chasing happiness" I find it hard imagining that 24 hours, 14 billion eyes, staring Judging what you're doing, how you're living, what you're wearing I'm chewing on a bubble gum, laying in a field Connecting all the pieces, contemplating how I feel I don't mind not having what i want I fear not knowing it And I do not fear fear I fear of showing it Would I rather be blind and deaf And fail to see my end reach Or use the knowledge that I've gained To run away, but face grief