Oblivion Dust - Crawl lyrics

I woke up thinking how I've never had a good time I seem to lack the kind of life that everybody has I gotta have it, I gotta have it The perfect feeling that everybody has A little confused To why I continue To let the maggots enter me and live I better sterilize my heart today I better sanitize my mind again And when I crawl I bleed like an angel Suicide I'll never die because I haven't lived cause it's Something I could never find Something I could never find I'm ripped up by all that I've found Something aims at me from up in the sky I'm still confused To why I continue With every day I change a little more I have to fabricate myself today I have to recreate myself again Maybe my fault that I never really opened up Take away every last piece of life cause it's Something I could never find Something I could never find Something I could never find Something I could never find Could never find Could never find