O.c. - Drowning lyrics

Where am I now? Which way do I go? Will I figure this out This day or tomorrow? I originated above the damp weeds And now I'm A little bit antsy out in The middle of the damn sea drowning Thinking about the planets needs While questioning my sanity Damn it seems, i've been a kid all my life And now I'm twenty years old, and white Privileged, got NO gold but life at home is right I'm never cold at night, ive always known that Id have something good that what my soul would like Fresh produce I can stab with my fork and bite Waiting for meals only over night, in the light We go to the garden to gather ingredients for a fritita were starting I know what its like to live the fullest life I've been shown whats right I've never had to pull a pipe cept when I have weed and a bowl and I Couldn't sleep because the defeating heat of this dumb season Its hot and humid with no respite For some reason all my life has been awfully like A summer day without the nice sun of may but Where its a bummer to make a move at all Running would be insane its too damn hot But, its not something to blame I won't front cus I'VE made All my f**ing mistakes, its tough and it takes Both my small two balls to s** it up not cover my face Shudder as I huddle in shame under the covers But to stand up and take all the due fault For all thats the result of the fact that I think I don't do In fact I think i've told you Maybe when I was bout to drink my fourth brew Or it was a blazed me off reefer, perhaps both, or maybe not either I may have been eager to git to know you I make friends easily and at school it comes in handy But I have ta to try and see if you'll actually spend time with me After you truly understand me,it can seem That what people can't see is that this dudes a f**ing pansy I originated above the damp weeds, and now I'm A little bit antsy out in The middle of the damn sea drowning My heads next to sink but I'm just getting to think about the planets needs While simultaneously, I'm questioning my own sanity Panic needs to set in still, cus man, I see sh**s getting real I can't believe how I'm a man in need of a better will I barely manage to keep from sitting, still I can't believe how I'm a man in need of a better will I barely manage to keep from sitting, still Where am I now? Which way do I go Will I figure this out This day or tomorrow? I can't believe how I'm a man in need of a better will I barely manage to keep from sitting, still I'm not at risk and not in need of a hospice I'mma leave the hospital sick and ill The doctors will see they're not responsible For this often seen inoperable common disease That seems to be unstoppable Which you see to me is comical Cus if I can't defeat this obstacle then you see I can't start onwards towards when I can lead My optimal destiny, so best believe I'mma keep pressing me until that end that I see, eventually is possible Where am I now? Which way do I go Will I figure this out This day or tomorrow? I'mma keep pressing me I'mma keep pressing me I'mma keep pressing me I'mma keep pressing me I'mma keep pressing me I'mma keep pressing me Until that end that I see, eventually is possible