Nugatory Hope - Fading lyrics

Oh, I know why I know why everybody hates me Just let me handle it I'll make it so much better I'm so confused Tell me, why the hell is this happening I've seen it all before So why am I losing all control? I'm not close to my home Don't tell me how to be something more I don't have what I need So show me one more way Nothing that I need is this I don't know what to expect, so I hide myself away Just like always But I'm too naive to understand that I'm fading away I'd break apart Then try to pick up the pieces With bleeding hands I try to shield myself from despise My reputation's gone so cold, and I'm Giving in to my inner voices in Unadulterated desperation I can't find a shelter, 'cuz I burned my old one down Along with all pride and joy I want to quit, but I'm forced to march forward Like an insignificant ant I'm not close to my home Don't tell me how to be something more I don't have what I need So show me one more way Nothing that I need is this I don't know what to expect, so I hide myself away Just like always But I'm too naive to understand that I'm fading away This is where it starts and ends I've got nothing in my defense A downward spiral's all I see, and It will only go down from here