Nugatory Hope - Apparition lyrics

The demons of my past are catching up And there is no true place to hide Living on the fringe, isolated, alone And nobody can hear me cry I'd let it rest for time, but the ghosts wake up To bring the memories back again The void inside has commandeered my peace of mind With silence as my only friend When I study your eyes I see no compromise To the war that rages inside I see the open wounds, the scars The closing tomb, and You want to fix the wrongs of yesterday I think of all the stories that I made up I think of all the times enough wasn't enough It all reflects when I look into your eyes The past is the jail that imprisons me And moving on isn't easy as it seems The cursed past controls the cursed now I'll never escape from my old self Is it too much for me? Should I run and hide? Should I stop it all, or let it slide? I let it go to waste, and I'm at my end There's no real way to save me now I k**ed everything that meant a thing to me Things I've been taught to never live without All I have remaining are these memories And I still hang on? I don't know how I think of all the stories that I made up I think of all the times enough wasn't enough It all reflects when I look into your eyes The past is the jail that imprisons me And moving on isn't easy as it seems My old ways never seemed to fade away And you're the apparition that mirrors me I guess I'm done; the curtain's dropped They think I'm fine, but no, I'm not It's out of reach, I missed my shot 11 down to 12 as I race the clock I guess we're done; the curtain's dropped They think we're fine, but no, we're not It's out of reach, we missed our shot 12 down to none as we race the clock When I study your eyes I see no compromise To the war that rages inside I see the open wounds, the scars The closing tomb, and You want to fix the wrongs of yesterday Wounds fade, wounds fade over time But their scars always remain