Nter - Suicide letter lyrics

[Chorus] The monster... blah blah blah [verse 1] Blood on my hands im trynna wash the stains away Pills in my hands im trynna take the pain away Thoughts in my head they got me going crazy man Actions of my self slowly breaking down my fam These valumes i take there meant to get me through the day I take a handful but still im in the same place Depression man its got me f**ing crying tears at night In my girls arms she tells me it will be alright I can't cope man im still in the worst state She found me slashing up with a f**ing razor blade Call it mental help admit it to the mental ward She told me loosing you is something that i can't afford I see my sons face and start to break down Pop a clerical Micheal please calm down Im walking on the edge, i can't slip tho Long kiss goodnight and then i overdose [Chorus] [verse 2 ] Have you ever really tried to take your own life Have you ever had them crazy thoughts at night If i choose to leave i hurt the people round me Im hearing voices in my head, daddy dont leave Micheal slow down, just take a step back Spazing out i see a doctor with a needle packed Full of d** feel my body start to shut down Loose control as my vision starts to fad out Waking up look around where can i be Strapped to a bed, doctors all around me I talk to the sky, like mumma where you be at Flash backs of my face i can see that Memories racing through my head im insane Talking to a doc but i dont feel the same Im over life, i gotta show ya Deep down inside im a monster [Chorus]