NSD - Introspect lyrics

[Verse] Kick start like Mountain Dew I'm spoutin' truth Look for some real people I'm countin' 2 One is me the others lookin in the mirror My mind and eyes are open I ain't never seen more clearer I've never been one for stuntin' I hate the complications Of having to change up like a conjugation Plus your cards can get pulled in any conversation This won't get no amens from the congregation Cuz the truth hurts Usually ends up in two words One finger on each hand No stones but 2 birds I don't care about popularity cuz it fades I just wanna rip stage Speak truth cuz it stays n***as say that they ballin' but can't even pay the studio More concerned about all of their swag and the groupies hoes When it should be the craft instead they stupid flow Is crap Because of this they lack sk**s and sound stupido Muy intellegente I'm a rappin sensei Bring relief to the game's pain I'm on my bengay Still I'm not perfect God knows I ain't perfect But I look into my eyes and I feel like I deserve it I know that I am worth it no loreal My stories tell The life of kid trapped inside a lonely hell Mind filthy and my heart cold Should've sold my soul To the devil for some Mils and a show at the Super Bowl Take a pole of Jose, Drown the sorrow Load a bowl of OJ, See y'all tomorrow The problems reoccur but solutions stay the same Maybe I should find better way to deal with the pain Never mind that I find rap gives me my escape To let my words free get em out this crazy place Talkin to myself feel I'm in a crazy phase Gotta get my whole life crispy like I'm eatin' raisin' canes We're all chickens on the farm of life Raised up to be just whatever the farmer likes Tryna break the mold like I went martyred ice Now I'm running the whole farm and took the farmers wife My thoughts although demented Are hard like they're cemented My heart feel the same, Don't know how I can to end it Lord forgive me please cuz I'm livin' like fool I don't listening so I open up to you [Verse 2] Am I fallen angel or a risen devil? My past life must've been desheveled A n***a boy fightin' for the rebels Die fightin' for a cause I don't really believe in Like snowman rootin' for the time of summer season I'm just breathin' Feel like I've lost all my emotion Far away from the times I was singin' in devotion Maybe it's a side effect from blowin' all the potion See my future like I'm Raven so now the boys in motion I race and I'm gone My face still is stone Except when I'm stoned Or writin' a song Otherwise I just zone I'm not braggin I'm tryna let you in To this cycle of life in which I continue to spin Again and Again I'm gone with the wind Life full of sin Chasin' power, respect, money, mistress, mary and gin But I know I'll win the war even if I lose a battle In the ocean take my arms and I'll find a way to paddle Life can be some horse best believe that I will saddle Up Not rattled much So straddle s*ut I be cattle tough To reach all of my goals I'm down to walk through all the fire Walk into the palace spit upon all of the sires Do 100 on the freeway after I just took some pliers Cut the brake wires In a car with tread-wore tires I'm in dire need of savin' Or a brain evaluation Cuz the level of creation In my head force fires [Outro x2] My mindset and grind led me to this point I could turn back now but I can't disappoint I should've dreamt small, now I don't have a choice I gotta use my voice