Now and on Earth - No Way Out lyrics

Holding on to everything I've known is harder than expected Running from my memories Of you And parts of me infected Praying for a better reason Why my demons never vanished Losing my mind and I am all alone The evil's automatic I'm still waiting for the day When everything's ok but before I go You should know There's no way out of this Even if we try There's no way out of this I never wanna say goodbye This is all my fault And you're the reason why I'm losing hope and I don't think it's right F*ck Looking in the mirror I can see exactly what I'm missing Staring at a better part of me without my best intentions I can feel it waking up inside me now It's almost over Holding on before I hit the f*cking ground I'm still waiting for the day When everything's ok but before I go You should know There's no way out of this Even if we try There's no way out of this I never wanna say goodbye This is all my fault And you're the reason why I'm losing hope and I don't think it's right Throw the ashes to the wind Forget I exist Rip the pages start again We are dead