Nothing Painted Blue - A Longer Leash lyrics

Not to coin a phrase/but play it as it lays Make them think you're safe in your restraints Not to tip my hand/but all these false demands Misdirect from what I really want And how much I really want I see a jar of pills and a bottle of bleach I want all of one or a little of each They give me a longer leash but I keep straining I know they check the beds/when we're f**ed on meds That's why I keep your picture in my pants But they don't have a clue/what I intend to do When we sneak out from the Easter dance So I'll tell you in advance I want to lead you once more into the breach Pierce you like the flesh of a peach They give me a longer leash but I keep straining Why be brave When fear is all you have? Why be saved? There's nothing to forgive Why behave As if the life you live Requires explaining? I see a jar of pills and a bottle of bleach A golden ocean just out of reach They give me a longer leash but I keep straining