Nosaj Thing - Nightmares / Lucid Dreams / Unconscious lyrics

[Part One: Nightmares] [Verse 1: Josh Smith] I'm starting to feel distant Looking at my inner self and doubting life decisions I'm addicted to clicking and searching pics of naked women I just pray to The Lord all my sins are forgiven Try repenting but can't, don't know how much I can take If you ain't me then you simply cannot fathom what's at stake Man I'm serious, this is a career I'm tryna make It's hard being around people who got money in the bank When you broke (broke), tryna stay afloat Unaware of the trials and tribulations up ahead Walking through a place knowing that you could end up dead Cuz your shirt the color red where the blues live And I ain't tryna get shot like Proof did Never catch me slipping even though I am a loose fit Inexperienced and underestimated But working constantly just so I can tell you that I made it Word explosions and mind implosions I'm staring in the distance Questioning my existence blocked by unintended inhibitions Story book of my life, but the rest is still unfinished It's unwritten what'll happen if I keep flipping these pages Semi-depression I'm caged into this prison Amazing how I stay in it when I know I'm about to give in I'm sick of it I'm in bed and I'm tossing, turning and shiverin' Waking up quivering, in cold sweats, Lord please deliver me Some shut eye, cuz I never get to sleep Wolves in my mind devouring and slaughtering the sheep Craving for some peace at night when I'm having my dreams But in reality it's all wishful thinking, truthful speaking I'm having nightmares [Screams, roars, gunshots, laughter, chaos] [Part Two: Lucid Dreams] [Heartbeat] [Hook: Josh Smith] My body is gone, I'm lucid dreaming again A loss of feeling it seems like it's just me and the pen My body is gone, I'm lucid dreaming again (x2) [Bridge: Josh Smith] Slow my thoughts down just so I could keep up Inner voices are telling me I'm not good enough My uncertainties and doubts are slowly rising up Everything as it seems wants me to give it up [Verse 2: Josh Smith] I'm nothing That's what I think as my nightmares turn lucid It's too much pressure, don't know if I can do this What if people think my project is stupid? What if they think that my rapping's a nuisance? Am I good or is that just something they say? Will I be D-list or will I be on Sway? Up at night, I just hope and I pray That my insecurities would all go away Will I ever be better at freestyle than Ye? Will I ever be someone kids can look up to? Will I always be someone that you can run to? Will I be a failure or will I become successful? Will life always be stressful? Will rhymes always flow through my pencil? Am I just a person or can I be a vessel? Am I just a human being or can I be a stencil? Carving the way for others up ahead Or will I simply be one that they all laugh at instead? What if I'm too generous and end up like Hammer? What if my music doesn't get me that bread? If they Google search my name, will actually they find me? Or will they see the guy that's bouncing the Spalding? What if rapping isn't really my calling? What if thoughts no longer flow from my head? Will people miss me if one day I was dead? A dark thought, but a genuine fear I'm so afraid of the future and what it brings near My life pond's turning murky when it used to be clear My mind in overload, can't process these thoughts Cuz what I got is all I got, and it ain't even that hot It's not, my thoughts in knots, memories are forgot As I fought to regain consciousness, can't take it Feel like I'm wasted And I black out [Part Three: Unconscious] [Verse 3: Josh Smith] It's like I'm unconscious I don't feel like me anymore It feels like I'm nauseous So sick, got one foot out the door I don't know where my life is headed But I know one thing's for sure I'm unconscious Just lost in this world [Verse 4: Josh Smith] Just a wanderer, he's wandering Wondering what's become of him It's lightninging, it's thundering He's blundering, he's struggling Losing hope, he's about to just give up and then He looks up and his eyes begin to open and He's home again