None - Saved my life lyrics

Take the gun put it to your head Count to 3 pull the trigger 1, 2, 3 boom all it takes is one bullet And maybe few words Like goodbye So just close your eyes find the relief that you're looking for… I have not pulled the trigger you walked in ‘bout the time I was going to… And I hate you for that now you make my life good when I'm with you But when you leave all the thoughts and the pain come back too… I'm so confused… what is happiness I have never felt it I have been called many thing but they all were to through me down never to pick me up So when you say stuff like you are beautiful what the hell does that mean You caught me from falling when I was standing on the chair with the rope around my neck Why did you catch me what was the point I'm a waste of skin and bones There was no point in catching me You could have saved someone else's life Much more important than mine Why the hell would you save me? I'M NOTHING I fell in love with you How the hell did this happen? Why are you my world, why are you my everything What the hell are you doing to me? I was meant to fall from that chair You were not supposed to save me And now I love you I get the bu*terflies when I'm around you I know I don't love for your looks I love you… For your personality, your voice, the way you act, the way you make me feel But your looks are good too Because I <3 you But I am not going to lie the urge to k** myself still comes back at times and sometime well you know what I do so that I will not k** myself You're the reason I am not dead Thank you for listening to me and for loving GOODBYE!!!!