Non-Aggression Pact - Choking lyrics

I'm wondering what I might see If you were lying next to me Your lips as blue as they can be My hands around your neck just choking, choking I feel this pain inside my head I'm always wishing you were dead Lying naked on my bed Stop this pain inside my head, my head I've got to really get it all I will control you Some special feeling for a fear within you Look into pain and get it up Dig in your body My evil feeling's got to go I'd love to take you down If words are said and words are wept And promises are left unkept The blood I feel is warm and wet My rage is what you'll see and what you'll get I've still been trying to rack my brain My life is just so full of pain A waste of time is all the same I like my life so full of pain, of pain A violent display of love I'm turning pushes into shoves So take my s** and take my love Somebody's watching from above, above