Nigritude of pentecost - Calling Upon My Heart lyrics

calling upon my heart, suppression me by ordering, can't control own mind can't do it alone can't remember anything salvaging me, salvaging me, salvaging me, fighting, tussling, every single moment is that representing our own hell am i become self hatred am i become a slave how i escape from this parasite how i relinquish this parasite this is a ma** suppression which impaled my soul should i yield the palm to,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, if i keep my eyes closed they will never & ever find me a serpent rises in my body can i away from this eternal nightmare