Nicolas Azlon - Santopia lyrics

[Intro Monologue] This song is based on three ideas that I've tied together; I watched my grandma spread my grandpas ashes into the sea Jimi Hendrix wrote castles made of sand in 1967 And I once I built a sandcastle With somebody that I loved dearly At just twenty I was too young to see it clearly And probably could've never have guessed that in two years We 
wouldn't be an item But as I thought about that idea fighting 
the tears? My ears nearly combusted Because I trusted 
the castle that we constructed Was of an indestructible substance But that's dumb since Everything was once just A formless void Be sure every moments enjoyed Because one day it's going to slip away And I'm pretty sure that's just something That we in the third dimension just can't avoid [First Verse] I've written, 26 verses … 696 bars With each of their multis perfect my stomach finds this is hard I'm crushed with all types of scars Where the f** do I start? I just witnessed four years of history, literally get ripped apart Maybe with how once upon a time I felt so unworthy of love I was on the cusp of self destruction When she cured me with hugs A lot of my friends got hooked on d** I probably could have done that easily But I consciously chose responsible So that she would be proud to be with me Because when I was walking next to her? The sun would never cease to shine With a reason to believe? I found so much peace of mind Of the deepest kind It's like life was just a tree to climb But the day she flew away? I was bluntly confronted with the need to find All that sh** on my own I had to go it alone And so I roamed … For six months the open road was my home If only the amount I've grown Could be spoken in poem or shown I found Unit - E when I was thrown to the unknown [Chorus] If you knew that we Would have to watch it slip away Would you have played in the sand with me? And built intricately? 
I concluded that the answers yes I used to ask myself constantly If you knew that we Would have to watch it slip away Would you have played in the sand with me And built intricately? 
I concluded that the answers yes I used to ask myself constantly [Second Verse] Doors open and close That's just how it goes You could stare at the mountains And you could play a thousand shows But what you seek at the mountain peak Is peace with the continuum I wish it was consistent but now I think it's a pendulum What if it sways, like the waves? Breath, Yin and Yang What if it's 
in and out, up and down Or just signals in your brain? Accept what can't be changed Be the best that you can be Because 
peace is found within And that's the key to Unit - E [Third Verse] I used to be extremely pissed. wanted you to feel my pain Felt your methods were evil and on them I would often blame f**ing everything. Can't say that I felt no salt I felt you'd found happiness with my soul as your pole vault I was devastated. couldn't think. therefore I could barely rap Fans, how you finish your album When it feels like every days a trap? But no talks of the bad. I'd rather rap about Huntsville Watching monologues of plastic bags Thinking of that's fun still But sometimes I tell myself I'd like to forget Then watch Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind and felt sick Like sh** … Those thoughts are positive And I don't want to let go But now the house is haunted And those laughs are just an echo A muffled reverberation of some distant past When I connected it to the trip I took with gran I just laughed Like wow… You're right Jimi. It all melts into the sea Even if you find your perfect partner eventually he or she Will cease to be. Because that's life right? It's fleeting So enjoy it while it lasts and try to smile as it's receding [Final Verse] Dear Gran Dearest Wanda Lee Dearest dopest mother f**ing grandma that there can be To witness you say goodbye to Pops Was such a tremendous honor It moved me I'm forever a better man because it offered Unapologetic insight into the depth of human love I just tried to give you space because I knew it must be tough He was your husband of forty years Your best friend. It was perfect I'll never question sandcastles again You're proof that they're worth it [Chorus] If you knew that we Would have to watch it slip away Would you have played in the sand with me? And built intricately? 
I concluded that the answers yes I used to ask myself constantly If you knew that we Would have to watch it slip away Would you have played in the sand with me? And built intricately? 
I concluded that the answers yes I used to ask myself constantly [Sample] It doesn't really matter that the wind or the water Is going to come along and maybe change it Or have it morph into something else Because the whole enjoyment in a sandcastle Is in the process of making it