Nicolas Azlon - Hugging My Demons lyrics
Hugging My Demons [Sample] "I gots to talk. I gotta tell what I feel I gotta talk about my life as I see it!" [Verse 1] You know what I see? Broken hearts and bike parts. Acoustic guitars A little human in Movemint just trying to shoot for the stars But truthfully it's hard When your self perception is bruised and scarred From verbal and mental abuse, but pain produces hearts- - Of gold. I know that I'm a beautiful soul That's why I try to disregard The harmful things that I've been told Cause' people overdosing on confidence? Don't conform to molds And tuxedo penguins? They're able to find warmth in cold So f** the world. I've got my middle fingers high Absolute self improvement I'm doing way more than getting by If I'm convinced, I'll try That's how I built a bridge into the sky And this is why, my dreams'll never get sick and die I'm pretty thankful for everything mother put me through I'm also thankful for every female who hurt me too I'm thankful for every sh**ty teacher and my bullies Cause' pain? Made me the man I am and I'm thankful for it. Truly… [bridge] Been holding on to pain. I admit it. It's true Been doing it for years but you know what? I forgive me too [Verse 2] That can be the most difficult phrase to say But I refuse to let this optimism waste away I used to use the word hate probably like everyday The rage in me is crazy but I choose to behave a different way Cause' I could probably play the victim card until I don't exist But if I did? On my d**hbed? I know I'd wish That I'd been different, it's human nature. We all resist Improvement is almost counter-intuitive but to bloom is bliss. Sit-ups are difficult but Skittles taste amazing And over dream chasing most are just procrastinating Do that sh** today. No more forever waiting If you don't live a life fulfilled the effects could be devastating I know without a doubt that this is all I want to do Skate, Travel, Edit Videos, and say these Rhymes to you It's easy to romanticize. and lots of people try to follow Not respecting the sacrifices needed and they get swallowed This isn't simple. You'll spend a lot of years impoverished Would you trade forty thousand hours For a style that's flawless? I know that college will get you profits and lots of cheese But Hip Hop scholars rarely get dollars for their philosophies [Chrous] So I'm lettin' my baggage go My job is hard enough and all the hate just makes me slow I can't be broke and pissed off at the same time I know that there is only now It's not too late to change my mind So I'm lettin' my baggage go My job is hard enough and all the hate just makes me slow I can't be broke and pissed off at the same time I know that there is only now It's not too late to change my mind [Final Verse] So Mom, your drug addiction deeply influenced my life It was an everyday destroyer of peace, a nuisance to fight But now at twenty two? I'm just grateful that you survived When the world gets you down I want this to renew your vibes You sacrificed a lot, endured problems I have never seen Frankly, you are more acquainted with anguish Than I could ever dream. We make a better team When we're not fighting so I'll keep this short Just remember what you once told me At Morning Forest Court You said, Ferrell… Don't let it phase you when they speak contemptuous Their perception is irrelevant I know it's crazy but if you could just Be the ten year old me as I'm rhyming this to you now And understand the ma**ive impact That that had on me as a child You might crack a smile Because self worth? is found within And if you never hear nothin' that ever comes out my pen? Just let it be that. Just let it be that… I'm so incredibly thankful you told it to me way back Cause' I get very off track but confidence is the compa** Common sense will help to not get lost Or washed up like Columbus You used to pack my lunches and read to me, I'm so thankful For the way that you raised me Because living a life that's painful? It's like a gift from an angel The pressure makes you stronger It's not of shameful to stand up and face a monster So I no longer hold resentment, I pinky promise. We good I'll forever cherish when you pushed me on swings At Creekwood [Outro] Yep. and that's my new reality If you ever want to find Unit - E Then that's how it has to be I'm not perfect guys, I'm pretty far from mastery I'm not the Buddha just a Lostin' Texas rap-emcee [Chorus] So I'm lettin' my baggage go My job is hard enough and all the hate just makes me slow I can't be broke and pissed off at the same time I know that there is only now It's not to late too change my mind So I'm lettin' my baggage go I can't be broke and pissed off at the same time I know that there is only now It's not too late to change my mind [Sample] Don't afraid to be real Lotta people are scared to be too real sometimes But f** it, just say what you feel You're an artist so just paint your pictures The way you want them to be painted Dont listen to somebody else Or go off of the way somebody else is doing it