Nick Steele - Atelphobia lyrics

[Sample: Macklemore] Now he just wanted to act like them He just wanted to rap like him Us as rappers underestimate the power and the effects that we have on these kids [Verse 1] All we really want, each and every one of us is to be remembered in a million years That's why I live my life the best I can with no regrets and try to ignore all of these fears Why is it when girls hook up they're called s*uts…but guys get hi fives for bustin their nuts Should I rap more like this, should I rap more like that? I should just rap as myself as a matter of fact And that's the reason I think Scotty's wack Cause he doesn't seem to have depth on his tracks And depth is all I seem to have left, cause so many sleepless nights all I've done is wept And throw on some Eminem and pretend that I don't wish my life would end And my friends aren't there so why do I even call them friends But in reality and honesty, I'm probably a wannabe of possibly a prophecy cause constantly im commonly …the one trying to live modestly when nobody else does Most of the time I feel I'm the kid nobody else loves And they say “oh Frankie wow I love him” In my head I say “when was the last time you hugged him” Cause that's all I need to keep from breaking But it gives me something to write, music making Cause Kobe made 23 million in 2010 Where as we got parents who won't see their kids again And yet as the same time that America sheds a tear Ray rice is getting 9 mill a year Cause he plays for the Baltimore ravens Yet we still have “Food for the homeless foundations” Education isn't getting any funding Yet we're surprised when our kids turn out like al bundy [Sample: Macklemore] The fact of it is most people that rap like this talkin' about some sh** they haven't lived Surprise, you know the drill Trapped in a box, declined record sales Follow the formula violence, d**, and, s** sells So we try to sound like someone else This is not Californication There's no way to glorify this pavement [Verse 2] And that's why I tell stories within all of my rhymes Cause there's parts of me within all of these lines And I can bear my soul in each and every rap poem The depth of who I am I'm trying to show them There's more to me than a half black kid who giggles I speak through rhymes which speak through riddles And to the haters I give these fingers in the middle The concept of what I try to say is so simple But in reality nobody really gives a f** They want something to roll their windows down and turn their system up Well screw it I'm saying I'll rap how I wanna And be myself is what I am gonna ..Do and its nothing new or fresh I'd rather be hated for what I am then fake and the best The life I'm fearing… seems more like the life I'm nearing And they say to face your fears but they shouldn't be approaching… How did I I get stuck in this spot, where music is all I got And it's a lot but it's never enough And when it comes down to it I'm trying to rap real stuff Like the fact that the only that's going up is the debt And the amount of nationwide tragedies and d**h And the kids under the influence of herion and meth Because a home life is something they never met [Sample: Macklemore] I've seen my people's dreams die I've seen what they can be denied And "weeds not a drug" - that's denial Groundhog Day life repeat each time Cheatin' and lyin' Friendship cease, no peace in the mind Stealin' and takin' anything to fix the pieces inside Broken, hopeless, headed nowhere [Verse 3] I come from a city where people have it so good That to add excitement to their life they try to act hood Being rude to cops and taking so many shots That they are seeing spots by the time it's 12 o'clock And then they are drinking and driving Barley surviving but the thing that is oh so surprising Is that they're doing well in school Silly little fools, I know you're drinking just to seem cool And then the ones who are privledged are breaking all the rules Yet still have the money to apply to 5 star schools Did you know out of my graduating cla** 3 of the valedictorians had been caught straight pa**ed Out on the couch from drinking And the thing that I am thinking Is that America is great I really truly love her But I'm thinking she isn't really a mother More like a little sister or brother That takes everything they do wrong and cover It up, to the best of their luck Cover up anything that happened when they run amuck, That's what's up You'd rather here a dope beat and some lines about s** Well listen to the other 900 rappers who claim that they're next [Sample: Macklemore] Thinkin' I would never do that, not that drug And growing up nobody ever does Until your stuck, lookin' in the mirror like I can't believe what I've become Swore I was goin' to be someone And growing up everyone always does We sell our dreams and our potential To escape through that buzz Just keep me up, keep me up Hollywood here we come