N'fa - Hope You Don't Mind lyrics

[Intro] I'ma get on my sorta emo sh** on this one Gonna vent a little I hope you don't mind Yeah, listen [Hook] I hope you don't mind if I spill my pain The longer that I don'ts like I'm goin' insane Can I let it all out? Can I let it all out? See I hope you don't mind if I spill my pain The longer that I don'ts like I'm goin' insane Can I let it all out? Can I let it all out? [Verse 1] Aye yo, I wish I had a time machine To change the way that my mind perceives everythin' my eyes have seen And make me look at life through a wider screen It ain't what you might believe's happenin' behind the scenes I treat the beat like an X-ray, press play Looking inside, the best way to express pain f**ing up is becomin' somethin' I'm used to Cause sometimes to find yourself you gotta lose you To those listenin' sorry for bein' emo But f** what the doctor says This is what I need though Yeah, and so I'm walkin' into that cloud Where it has to hurt just to bring you back down Almost became addicted to the paink**ers Cause without that feelin' yo the pain's k**er You'd think having a near d**h experience Make a smart person take their life more serious From nearly dyin' to feelin' so enlightened To nearly cryin' and feelin' only frightened Releasin' this is hard yo it f**in' hurts a bit It's the only way I know how to come to terms wit' it And this is Matt here I'm givin' you the real me I just hope that you can feel me And I know you're probably thinkin' I should keep it to myself But I can't yo I need it cause it helps [Hook] I hope you don't mind if I spill my pain The longer that I don'ts like I'm goin' insane Can I let it all out? Can I let it all out? See I hope you don't mind if I spill my pain The longer that I don'ts like I'm goin' insane Can I let it all out? Can I let it all out? [Verse 2] And with the partyin' I think I need to settle down To be real I'm gettin' a little messy now A few drinks and I'm stressin' out in another state Looking for my mum to come and get me out I've got no idea when I'm coming home And all I want is to be left the f** alone I'm only being real the depression comes and goes Ignore it cause tonight there is yet another show Looking in the mirror like what the f** am I starin' at? Not recognizin' the brutal mess that is staring back So I'm givin' you the deepest sh** you ever hear So if you've got time for Matthew then lend an ear I'm just hopin' that I've said it clear If I stay on this path the end for 360 is gettin' near I know you're thinkin' I should keep it to myself But I can't yo I need it cause it helps [Hook] I hope you don't mind if I spill my pain The longer that I don'ts like I'm goin' insane Can I let it all out? Can I let it all out? See I hope you don't mind if I spill my pain The longer that I don'ts like I'm goin' insane Can I let it all out? Can I let it all out? [Verse 3] I see my mates like my brothers yo I hardly see 'em anymore The last time was a month ago They either workin' or gettin' in relationships I should do that too but yo I hate this sh** Don't get me wrong yo I love women With what I see though it makes it hard for me to put my trust in 'em All it takes is one person to fail you And then you feel like majority will fail too My insecurities will swallow me whole And when they arise yo I'm not in control They watchin' every move and they move with me Like "Look at that dude 60, that motherf**er's too skinny." I can handle friends tellin' me I'm underweight But from a stranger it's somethin' that I f**ing hate I know you're unaware that sh**'s a low blow But you feel the need to tell me like you think I don't know? No, that's rude, find a bridge and jump off And if I tell you to f** off then f** off That's not being immature about it That's me admitting I'm insecure about it And yo I'm sorry if I'm seeming insane But I wrote this while I was at the peak of the pain But now it's got me thinking I should keep it to myself But I can't yo I need it cause it helps [Hook] I hope you don't mind if I spill my pain The longer that I don'ts like I'm goin' insane Can I let it all out? Can I let it all out? See I hope you don't mind if I spill my pain The longer that I don'ts like I'm goin' insane Can I let it all out? Can I let it all out?