NF - How Could You Leave Us lyrics

How could you leave us so unexpected? We were waiting, we were waiting For you but you just left us We needed you, I needed you Yo, I don't know what it's like to be addicted to pills But I do know what it's like to be a witness it k**s Mama told me she love me, I'm thinking this isn't real I think of you when I get a whiff of that cigarette smell, yeah Welcome to the bottom of hell They say pain is a prison, let me out of my cell You say you proud of me, but you don't know me that well Sit in my room, tears running down my face and I yell Into my pillowcases, you say you coming to get us Then call 'em a minute later just to tell us you not, I'm humiliated I'm in a room with a parent that I don't barely know Some lady in the corner watching us, while she taking notes I don't get it mom, don't you want to watch your babies grow? I guess that pills are more important, all you have to say is no But you won't do it will you? You gon' keep popping 'til those pills k** you I know you gone but I can still feel you Why would you leave us? Why would you leave us here? How could you leave us here? How would you leave us? Why would you leave us? Oh, Hey I got this picture in my room and it k**s me But I don't need a picture of my mom, I need the real thing Now a relationship is something we won't ever have Why do I feel like I lost something that I never had? You shoulda been there when I graduated Told me you love me and congratulations Instead you left us at the window waiting Where you at mom? We're too young to understand where you at huh? Yeah, I know those d** got you held captive I can see it in your eyes, they got your mind captured Some say it's fun to get the high but I am not laughing What you don't realise and what you not grasping That I was nothing but a kid who couldn't understand I ain't gon' say that I forgive you cause it hasn't happened I thought that maybe I feel better as time pa**es If you really cared for me, then where you at then? Why would you leave us? Why would you leave us? How could you leave us here? How would you leave us? Why would you leave us? Hey Our last conversation, you were sat in the living room Talking 'bout my music and I brought you something to listen to You started crying, telling me this isn't you Couple weeks later, guess you were singing a different tune You took them pills for the last time, didn't you? They took you from us once, guess they came back to finish you Crying my eyes out in the studio is difficult Music is the only place that I can go to speak to you Took me everything inside of me to not scream at your funeral Sitting in my chair, that person talking was pitiful I wish you were here mama but every time I picture you All I feel is pain, I hate the way I remember you They found you on the floor, I could tell that you felt hallow Gave everything you had plus your life to them pill bottles You gave everything you had plus your life to them pill bottles Don't know if you hear me or not, but if you still watching ma Why would you leave us? Why would you leave us? How could you leave us here? How would you leave us? Why would you leave us? Hey (Sobbing) Sometimes I think about like, sometimes I think about things like, you know, when I have kids, you won't be there, you know? You won't be there for any of that, I'll never get to see you again, sometimes I wish I would have just called you, I wish I would have just picked up the phone, wish you were here, I mean you should of been there for us, you should have been here, those pills got you, right? Them pills got you, right? I wish you were here