NF - If You Want Love lyrics

I just need some time, I’m tryna think straight I just need a moment in my own space Ask me how I’m doin’, I’ll say, “okay” Yeah, but ain’t that what we all say? Sometimes I think back to the old days In the pointless conversations with the old me Yeah, back when my momma used to hold me I wish somebody woulda told me If you want love, you gon’ have to go through the pain If you want love, you gon’ have to learn how to change If you want trust, you gon’ have to give some away If you want love, if you want love Look, as a kid I used to think life Is moving so slow, I watch it go by Look out the window on my bus ride I thought the world was so small, but [?] I’ve always tried to control things In the end it’s what controls me Maybe that’s why I’m controllin’ I wish somebody woulda told me If you want love, you gon’ have to go through the pain If you want love, you gon’ have to learn how to change If you want trust, you gon’ have to give some away If you want love, if you want love The older I get, I feel like I’m always tryna save time Talkin’ to the voices in my head, they make me think twice Tellin’ me it doesn’t mean it’s wrong because it feels right I’m scared that one day I wake up and wonder where the time go Talk about the past like it’s the present while I [?] slow I sit in the living room and laugh with kids in my home [?] If you want love, you gon’ have to go through the pain I wish you woulda told me If you want love, you gon’ have to learn how to change I wish somebody woulda told me If you want trust, you gon’ have to give some away You gon’ have to give If you want love, if you want love If you want love, if you want love