NF - Lost lyrics

Look Self-awareness, pride's a coat and yes, I like to wear it bu*toned up, don't like to let no air in With a pair of gloves, that I hope doesn't perish I discovered, though, when I get holes in 'em and I let joy in, I'm in higher spirits My mistakes are like a screamin' parrot Just repeatin' lyrics, I can barely bear it when I'm lost Road is narrow, I'm lookin' down it like a gun's barrel Aren't we all searchin' for the serum that could help us breathe and leave our state of peril? All of us have made defensive scarecrows, that we scatter 'round our fields and treat like heroes When they scare away the things that we should cherish 'Cause we're too embarrassed to admit that fear is that we're lost Yeah, but what does it matter? I get so combative Inside of me's a personal canvas, the paint can be splattered Get messy when I start to get rattled The heart of a savage, I'm quiet when I lurk in the shadows But somethin' don't add up, I don't wanna be overdramatic But look at the data, it's obvious that humans are fragile We tend to get mad at the ones that call us out but the fact is we need someone that'll be honest when we fly off the handle I admit I throw a fit when I begin to unravel Keep my wits, been off the grid but now I'm back in the saddle My intent is not to rent, I like to own what I value I could sit here on the fence or maybe pick up the paddle I like to row against the current, that's the way that I travel Opposite of what the grain does, got the brain of a rebel Take initiative, I'm diligent on every level I never could settle, I like to keep my foot on the pedal, yeah I'd love to pack arenas and all But what I really wanna do is learn to handle my thoughts And put the reins on 'em, show 'em I'm the one that's the boss And pull 'em back when they get out of hand, I'm breakin' they jaws I'm takin' the flaws, that told me I could never evolve Then pull a Bane on 'em, ask 'em, "Oh, you think you're in charge?" You oughta know better, ain't no way around it, I'm flawed The traits that I want, they say I can't afford what it cost But I, manifested this Failing's how you grow and learn your lessons, kids Take the worse and try to make the best of it 'Cause when you fail, just know it's a test and if You can learn to pick yourself back up again And train your brain to not be such a pessimist It's okay to make mistakes, just don't forget that There's a high road but I skip the exit when I'm lost Yeah When I'm lost When I'm lost When I'm lost When I'm lost, lost [Hopsin:] Wow, these burdens are heavy And I'm hopin' it don't bury me I used to be joyful and skip so merrily But now I'm too cautious and tip toe carefully My mind left and it's nowhere to be found Am I a big ol' parody? 'Cause it's no fair to me And now I'm at the point where I'm spending a grand a week on hypnotherapy Look, I'm tryna wash away my sins I got a group of loved ones that ain't my friends And if I ever take an L then they might grin And they all wanna see me stay in the cage I'm in So when it come to anybody, there's no trust for no one Man, so what? My whole plan's to go nuts My shoulders ready for more shrugs, I'm gon' judge Anybody tryna enter my circle with no love (Hol' up) My sanity's gone, I'd rather be torn from this planet they planted me on Yes, that's a reward, I'm actually bored with having a sore heart It's torn apart from a family that I don't have anymore (Now hol' up) I was livin' so oblivious with millions, it really was a pity, huh? (A pity, huh?) It's kinda funny what a penny does, mixed in with a mini buzz (I feel stuck) Life's got me by the neck, with a blade against it (What?) Guess I was runnin' late for the train and missed it (What?) The only thing I feel is pain and vengeance (What?) So I'ma act out like a raging misfit (What?) And every verse I lay gon' stay sadistic (Yeah) You wanna hate me? Good, great, terrific (Good) You'll never see the day where my anger's dismissed You better go and change your wishlist 'cause I Yeah, manifested this Do not treat me like some adolescent kid I am praying to the Lord with the Book of James hopin' he gon' add my testament This dark cloud, that's my residence Demons knockin', I don't have to let 'em in I done made mistakes, day to day, you probably can't relate [NF:] I just ain't the same when I'm lost Yeah When I'm lost When I'm, when I'm lost When I'm lost When I'm lost, lost