New Years Day - Alone lyrics

I'm so bad I've done worse than k** and steal I'm so bad It's getting harder to conceal I've made these mistakes that I can't make up So many cuts I can't sew shut (So lets tear them up) I'm so bad Self-destruct another night I'm so bad That I can't even make it right Don't wanna be alone I know I went too deep But at lease I'm not alone Try to understand Breaking is the only way When I'm out of tricks up my sleeve I can't be honest, Even with myself (I've made a mess again) Breaking is the only way that i don't fall apart It's so wrong How I've used you for a crutch It's so wrong I've f**ed up and lost your trust Too late for tourniquets and bandages I'm damaged goods and that's the way it is Don't wanna be alone I know I went too deep But at least I'm not alone Try to understand Breaking is the only way When I'm out of tricks up my sleeve I can't be honest, Even with myself (I've made a mess again) Breaking is the only way that I don't fall apart (that I don't fall apart) The Bloods is off my hands and that's okay It's what I thought I wanted But that's changed Don't wanna be alone I know I want too deep But at lease I'm not alone Try to understand that I hate the way I am Breaking is the only way When I'm out of tricks up my sleeve I can't be honest, Even with myself (I've made a mess again) Breaking is the only way that I don't fall apart