New Orleans Swim Team - Void lyrics

It goes... Same things. To the letter Doing better, but I still jump at your shadow Like I'm mad, though I'm not Well, maybe a little bit Just because you left before we could fix this sh** And now I'm stuck here wondering. Like the slight pause lightning thunder brings But the echo of your flash last blinded me to thinking Like a blinking bloodied horse My legs long since plowed a course Through a solipsistic nightmare Where everyone was out for me like vultures I sculptured masks to disguise the denial And thrashed between blankets and top sheets Casted you so discreetly as a monster that Haunts early evening and ceilings above me Stealing the light from the noon, f**, I was so wrong about you Am I mocking the dead Or just representing you as best I can? I don't know I miss you, man Lately I've been wishing on lamp posts more than stars Because the light from the cars keeps me small Isn't it magnificent? We're all so insignificant You make yourself and die with it I missed your funeral If anything, you taught me different ways to be Made peace with an eternity I never saw Sometimes, still, I choke it back You went in sleep, already black How you lay, I'll never know Where do all our stories go?