Nemisis - Open Wounds lyrics

[VERSE 1] Momma, poppa, forgive me for the constant sinning All the problems, the dealings But the block was appealing It was blocking my ceiling No college, not willing to get polished I was reeling, feeling down now I'm healing Slow progress, wait, that's a beginning My solace is fitting I never had no qualms with admitting, when I'm scorned My life's a whirlwind in a storm, that skipped the calm Yeah, you know where I'm from Now that the picture is drawn Don't get ya facts wrong, I used to front like I got my trap on Didn't even realize as time pa**ed I became that character Before I put that act on like a Black Swan Did life cast wrong, maybe, probably Mercedes, hotties, who praise me, I'm godly In my mind, my composure is spotty Everyday laid with a lady, but I'm closer to my shotty No! Retrace my life's design, change the image from the frame Outta sight, outta mind You know the cycle, you lose one & gain some The dichotomy's in place, you can't intertwine'em, back to phase one It's like Looper, ya choice, better make one You choose but, make none, ya fate's done My slum, near the bottom end like a ba** drum Raise the stakes, I made mistakes, but my pains numb Why? Cause I faced them [HOOK] Face my mistakes They tell me all time, just let'em heal slow But I don't pay'em mind, I even let'em show sh**, where do I go? Maybe I know Maybe I don't, uh, yeah, yeah… Open wounds Gotta strive, gotta try to stay straight On my road while I'm closing Closing these open wounds [VERSE 2] I look around like, what happened here? Trapped in this atmosphere just hoping that some cracks appear Got some homies on lockdown these last few years I seen my best friend get shot down like some bad idea My path ain't clear, I'm f**ing boxed in In wishbone offense, I'm running outta options Friends will hate to ya back, they fake & they plottin' Watch'em close, they be acting Shady like Hopsin I'm playing possum, I bait'em, dare'em to try something Real recognize itself, and you are in disguise frontin' Everybody's ride or die, til' they life's on the line Then they like, “Why would I ride? I rather not die for nothing” No discussion, the clock is tickin' I honestly think, my target is me, I'm probably my only competition From poverty stricken, to robberies, pitching Something was constantly guiding me Tell God, my conscience has risen (Like whoa) [HOOK] Face my mistakes They tell me all time, just let'em heal slow But I don't pay'em mind, I even let'em show sh**, where do I go? Maybe I know Maybe I don't, uh, yeah, yeah… Open wounds Gotta strive, gotta try to stay straight On my road while I'm closing Closing these open wounds [VERSE 3] When can I finally close'm? Man I'm hoping soon I pray & hope there's room before the closing of this tune I'm so in-tune with what others do It's hard for me to f**in' move Don't care if it s**s to lose Stuck on the net searching for nothing I need to stop this, always seeing gossip Don't care about, still I read and watch it Peep ya knowledge, they use methods of detail You know Beyonce's daughter's name- Who invented the email? sh**, I been poisoned bit the apple too Moving on, I'm Kublai Khan, I've found my Xanadu Days pa**, they say time heals all wounds, but I Stood, picking at my scabs, fell to a swoon Then I woke up, in hell? No, inhaled, uh, exhaled A breath, I pressed through my fails, then I exceled Now look here, Momma, ya kid's not a doctor Rather than be like his father, he wanted to be like Big Poppa But that's okay, you're sad, I'm sorry I'll go console you soon I wonder if this song's for me or you? Open Wounds…