Neil Hilborn - Como Conservatory, St Paul, Winter lyrics

Como Conservatory, St Paul, Winter Today we are in the Sunken Garden. We have come here because outside of this greenhouse it is cold and dry and the nosebleeds are beginning, but you have come here because I asked you to. We watch as a family winds its slow parade around the fountain. These girls are climbing onto and jumping from everything. These girls are indestructible. I am thinking about what our children would look like but when you ask what I am thinking I tell you nosebleeds. You tell me about your ex-boyfriend's brother's wedding, three years ago in the very spot where we sit, and this seems wildly appropriate given both that we will definitely not be married now and that, in moments after you had fallen asleep on my chest, those endless, nightly moments in which I imagined our wedding, it was always here, in this spot, this f**ing spot where now we sit and I want to kiss you now, but I do not tell you because it is no longer surprising or sad. You are getting up to leave and maybe if I sit here long enough, here in this place I have seen in dreams, in dreams from which I barely wake even when I am awake, dreams of waiting, of "I do," of waiting for god to appear and touch both of us and say I Am Here, here long enough you will appear down the aisle, white, white dress, your father beside you, flowers in hand.