Neal Morse - Chance of a Lifetime lyrics

I wish that I could tell you I'd turned right then And never looked back again It took a little while to work things out I had my life I had my doubts I'd rather stay in here with the pain I know Then step into the outside chance of a lifetime I'd rather stay in here with the pain I know Then step into the outside chance of a lifetime So I continued on in my opposite life Church by day, bars by night And as the time went on and I felt the change More and more, but I felt strange Cause I'd rather stay in here with the pain I know Then step into the outside chance of a lifetime I'd rather stay in here with the pain I know Then step into the outside chance of a lifetime Cause what if it's a trick I'm feeling And I start leaning and he hangs me out to dry? What if I just think he's steering But I'm just hearing the voice of my evil mind? Cause what if it's a trick I'm feeling And I start leaning and he hangs me out to dry? What if people think I'm crazy to turn 180 (degrees) And give my entire life? What'll people think? What if it's a lie?