NC Origan - Can't Stay Right lyrics

[Verse 1] The days been hard on me, I've had times I couldn't even stand I just don't understand, I run to my friend for help I lock myself in my bedroom "Christopher, what's wrong with you?" "Nothing, really nothing" Everyday, I just can't live without my granny I feel a knife through my f**in' tummy, I miss my gran and mummy I feel like I'm gonna die, what am I gonna do I can't plan a day, I always need help with sh** I am in pain, feel like I wanna cut myself with a razor blade I feel like I'm gonna fade, into the blackness I can't rap this sh** much, it's just too much for me I can't even see the light of day, usually I can I'm still living with my father, I ain't got my own place yet Ain't got a girl to love and to be cared of I ain't got sh** for me in this life, ain't gettin' anywhere I blew up in anger, I just can't have a, good time right now [Hook] Why in the world am I feelin' lonely I just don't have sh** goin' for me, I feel like I'm gonna just walk into the darkness as I rap this in my crappy mic, I just can't stay right [Verse 2] I'mma take a pill, swallow one at my will I'll still be the rebel that I think I am I don't stay calm, a cut on my f**in' left arm I aim with an AK but not shoot a bullet til someone goes in front of me I am not a grown up, I'm still a kid in a way I go in a mood, I ain't feelin' good as I walk through my old hood Fall on the ground til I get back up but I can't so I'mma crawl like an ant Every minute that I live it, I got a second to hold on to life in bad times as I live it Sometimes sh** doesn't go for me when I need it to When I need someone to help me through No help needed is what people think I don't need a sympathy, I just need to get back to being me If that's possible, am I gonna be in hospital Am I gonna be dead in my house, lying on the floor with pills and a can of Red Bull Paink**ers, but yet I've got rhymes that I claim as illers, so when we live the days and the days don't k** us I'mma buy 10 cars to roam around in. need money though I find it hard to earn dough, as I have no flow I need a flow to be iconic, but yet I'm ironic I'm a dick, but yet I take paink**ers to get a kick I am addicted to it and I need some help, maybe rehab might help I don't know, what the days'll become for me I am not giving up rap when I am not gettin' up I gotta live it up to my full potential I broke my last pencil, anger just gets to me easy I'mma be the MC that'll spit f**in' dope rhymes Write syllables when I need some co-codamol [Hook] Why in the world am I feelin' lonely I just don't have sh** goin' for me, I feel like I'm gonna just walk into the darkness as I rap this in my crappy mic, I just can't stay right [Verse 3] I'm bitter sometimes when I spit a rhyme I am a lot better, people just don't see that I'mma let ya'll know that I'm the best, you'll ever know Put you down with a gun, shoot you with one bullet I'mma f**in' ripper, but not Jack I am the demon that is so f**in' wicked that I created Jolly Sid He's my ego that is so evil that not even a priest can make him good He's the anger side of me, when I rage He writes it on a f**in' blank page I feel the flow when I go with the flow I'mma show some potential when I rap I use a keyboard, not a pencil now I used to when I first started rap Give my bullies a taste of their own medicine when I set a trap You lost, rip up your map You'll not understand it anyway, so stupid that you'll f** up a Ladbrokes bid Learn some sh** that you don't even know, the facts poppin' up and waitin' to show I'mma hit a hoe with a hammer til she grabs onto her life I told ya I'm wicked, this is Sid talkin' I bet, I'll get ya soul and give it to the f**in' devil I'm so f**in' damn downright sh** when I spit, I rap a verse for the whole universe, I ain't gettin' writer's block now I can think of lines a bit better now, yo [Hook] Why in the world am I feelin' lonely I just don't have sh** goin' for me, I feel like I'm gonna just walk into the darkness as I rap this in my crappy mic, I just can't stay right [Outro] Jolly f**in' Sid (Sid f**ers) NC Origan (Tells ya his origin) 2017 (Happy new f**in' year)